“So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!” 1 Corinthians 10:12
If you have ever experienced the indescribable joy of a release from chronic pain, then you know how I felt when I wrote Wrapped in God’s Grace, a Life Rediscovered. As I shared the story of how I reconciled my inability to save my child from himself, twenty-five years of disappointment, heartache, guilt and shame vanished.
What had consumed my thoughts and prayers now left a tremendous void, and that emptiness created a spiritual slippery slope. Convinced that the story required sharing as an encouragement to others, I decided to publish it. That’s when the trouble began.
I believed that my new purpose in life would be to serve the Lord by writing. At the end of every journal entry I wrote, “May the Lord be with me as I write, I live to serve and I serve by writing.” I then added the initials SDG (Soli Deo Gloria, a Latin term for glory to God alone) just as Johann Sebastian Bach did, as a constant reminder that any success was not mine but God’s alone. In hindsight, an extremely presumptuous goal.
It is easy for Satan to attack when our sinful nature provides fertile ground for entanglement. Although my sincere desire was to provide encouragement to believers and nonbelievers alike, as readers began to share their positive reactions, my selfish pride took the credit. The opposite of Soli Deo Gloria occurred.
The ensuing struggle distracted me greatly as I edited and published my first novel. Over the last six months, I have thrashed about wondering if this writing business is God’s will for me. Fortunately, when I struggle with selfish pride in my earthly journey the Lord has provided direction in His word.
“Therefore, submit to God. But resist the Devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, sinners, and purify your hearts, double-minded people!” James 4: 7-8.